So this weekend, well more like just today, I practiced a couple of new make up looks and posted them on my Facebook page. I just got a new Nikon D3000 so I was looking forward to using it as well. After reviewing the shots, I thought, wow, not only is this camera great, I really don't need to photoshop any of these pictures. I FREAKIN' LOOK FABULOUS!!! Well, FB wasn't really my friend today and totally irritated me. As I was trying to post up the pictures on FB over and over again, I started noticing something...
I have a rather large forehead. I used to have bangs but they grew out and for the sake of attempting to grow longer hair, I haven't really gotten a hair cut. I couldn't help pondering to myself, why is my forehead so freakin' huge?! I mean, it takes almost half my face! And my eyes....they're so small, and one looks smaller than the other! With my huge five-head and small eye(s), I look so deformed...I felt so ugly...felt like how could I think I looked BEAUTIFUL??? I looked like a joke...Maybe it was a good thing that FB wasn't publishing what I was trying to post...maybe they were doing me a favor and saving myself from embarrassment. With this thought, I immediately got angry and annoyed and it didn't help that my husband was nagging me at the same time either...
But after taking a couple minutes away and focusing on something else, I started to think, if we all notice our little flaws and are embarrassed by it, why do we post pictures? Especially onto sites that our friends and family and co-workers and the rest of the world can see? It's not like my hairline just all of a sudden decided to recede today..or that my right eye decided to shrink itself even smaller today. What was it? All of a sudden, I didn't care anymore. I looked at my pictures again and thought, you know what? Maybe I do need to get bangs...I'll do that tomorrow or the next day. I can't get new eyes...and I kinda like it. Do I look deformed? No, not really...its just the way I angled myself in front of the camera. But looking at me straight on, my right eye is a little smaller than my left, but you can hardly tell. Only when I'm scrutinizing and examining myself under the microscope that I see these things.
I proceeded to try to re-post the pictures on Facebook again, and what do you know? It went through..without any problems. Maybe FB just wanted me to really be comfortable with what I was displaying first. Who knew?
The point of this post (in case you haven't gotten it yet) is that no matter how fine or hot or pretty you look or think someone else looks, there's always a flaw. Somewhere, and when we focus so much on outer beauty, it starts to overwhelm us and like a domino effect, it just keeps knocking us down. The key is to know to when to stop, take a deep breath, and accept our flaws and imperfections, because we were made to be exactly who we are. Some things we can change, like our hair, but some others, we cannot permanently change and need to learn how to accept it and work around it, like our eyes.
I hope that this post makes sense to anyone who's reading it. If not, re-read. :P
No comments:
Post a Comment